Thinking Out Loud

Where does one go from here? Although I have a year before my Close of Service in Romania, the time has come…I need to start answering that dreaded question. Until now, I’ve been able to comfortably live these past 15 months in the present; I haven’t had to worry about the future, I haven’t had to worry about tomorrow. For the first time, I have been able to focus on today. And quite frankly, I like it. It makes me happy, I like who I am when I’m off the planning. Whether I wanted to or not, I was forced to learn how to live life on the fly and let me tell you – it is grand!

So, do I brace the future with a cold shoulder? Why go back to a life where that is impossible? To a life that has a prerequisite of planning? Where even the prerequisites cause undue stress and unhappiness? Why? Well…plain and simple, because that’s my home. That’s where my family and friends are. That’s where my heart and soul lay. That’s where my mentality was created, my need for competition derived, my sense of curiosity sparked and freedom allowed me to become me. Consequently, where does one go from here?